But, being honest, this world is a very difficult place for me to be right now. I’m seeing that this is true for many of us, especially if we are empathic or intuitive. I don’t have a remedy and I don’t want to brush off these feelings.
It’s hard, right now, to stay in the light. There is this part of me that wonders if there is value in stepping onto the darker path and following it to its end, with the hope that I would eventually find myself in the light, transformed and healed. There are some ancient practices that show the wisdom of this.
But the question for me, is, have I learned enough and gained enough strength to be able to follow the light through the darkness and successfully find the light?
Until I feel I can answer that question in the affirmative, I will stay in this spot, contemplating the work of alchemists who have gone before and find a way to be grace and light in this world, right now, no matter how difficult that may feel.
I’m not checking out. Just to be clear. This is where I’m meant to be.