It’s good for the soul for a person to say stupid things every now and then, right?
I made the time to seek healing with nbi this morning. I said something stupid on FB last night. On a post by someone I admire and respect. I apologized and am grateful for the grace shown to me. It wasn’t the first time I’ve said things that were stupid, just the most recent.
This morning found me struggling with the dark sides of my understanding. My stumble in being a competent human being is a double-edged sword. It is good to see that I still have a lot of work to do – it keeps me humble. It makes a dent in the soul, though, to acknowledge that I still have a lot of work to do – because being a competent human being is hard work.
Eagle, seal, nbi and seagull all brought me peace this morning. A reminder to be gentle but firm with myself. To understand that grace given me is grace that must be returned at some point in the future.
I am grateful for the stumble, for it has put my understanding on a new level. What has transpired, by my stupid statement and the grace of an elder to call me out, is that a new crack was made in my understanding and the light has gotten in, through this new crack, allowing me to think differently about my oral history and the life of my relatives who lived and died in Ohio.
I have much to be grateful for and the ability to make these steps in my understanding without devastating results does not escape my gratitude.