Every new growth cycle means that there is going to be a dark period. Like it or not, that’s how it goes. Transmuting and changing is painful. A friend of mine used to say “consciousness ain’t for wusses” and this proves true in my life over and over.
Recently I have had to break my association to some folks and organizations who have insisted upon furthering theories of conspiracy that are not grounded in reality and point to horrible, horrible outcomes for people who are most vulnerable. These theories are creating narratives that have no place in society, where our most vulnerable brothers and sisters are being forced to care for and feed us. Most notably, my relatives in Indian country are paying a high price and privileged people are running around spreading stories that are extremely divisive and hurtful.
I like to tell people “I have an inner conspiracy theorist living inside me, but I keep her on a very short chain.” Meaning, I’m not opposed to looking at the world through a different lens. However, I have learned, over time, that going looking for dastardly plots without a proper guide into the darkness leads only to madness, and that madness can overtake your reason in a heartbeat, before you know it.
If you start your journey looking for dastardly plots, odds are high you’re gonna find them, along with a cadre of similarly dastardly beings and energies. Energy flows where attention goes. That’s a universal law. Once you get into that cave, you are going to find yourself quickly bogged down in dank darkness and fear-based energies. Nowhere will feel safe. Everyone will be suspect. And the path to your heart will become choked out by the thorns of fear. I know. I have been there. I have seen what this does to myself, to friends, and to family.
I’m not naive enough to think that dark forces don’t exist. That is true. Spiritually, you can’t have light without dark. Well, I guess you could, but to my mind, humanity is exhausted easily if it’s always in the light. Darkness isn’t necessarily bad in and of itself. I digress.
I know that there are forces which manipulate, obfuscate, tesselate (M.O.T) so that their true intents are not visible to the world.
Our job is to bring light to that manipulation, obfuscation, tessellation that threatens to destroy hope, love, and compassion in our communities.
If we do not go into those caves where conspiratorial theories live with a way-shower, a light-bearer, we will be consumed. Our narratives will be manipulated by those who M.O.T. The narrative you emerge with eventually serves their intended purpose, because it can be so easily destroyed as it was built in fear and darkness.
How do you find a way-shower, a light-bearer, without falling victim to gurus and cult leaders? You have to ask yourself, what is your dominant energy signal? Where is your light? See, the light is not outside of you, but is inside you. Now, this is where it will get trippy for some people – you are NOT inside your body. YOUR BODY IS INSIDE YOU. You are so much more than a 3D being, and the real you reaches into dimensions beyond what you may be able to sense. Your body reaches not only into the heavens, but also deep into the earth, and within those realms is a light that is Divine.
You have a responsibility FROM this Divine light and TO this Divine light. I don’t want to get too prescriptive here about what you should or should not do. We each have to find our way to the light in our unique, sovereign, and power-full way. We must do that in faith, but we must back it up with ‘work’. I cannot do your work, and you cannot do mine, but we CAN commit to laying a good ground upon which ALL our work can be done. Through prayer and meditation, you could potentially commit to grounding grace, humility, peace, love, gratitude, forgiveness into the earth, which is our first healer.
This work prevents the manipulations, obfuscations, and tessellation and allows us to see into the darkness without getting consumed by the darkness.
A more mundane way to describe this protective stance is this way: whenever I am presented with a conspiracy theory, I ask myself, what if 25% of this is true? What is that which I think is most concerning to me? What needs light shone on it? And can I shine that light in a good way, without compromising my commitment to critical thought and balanced narrative?
Another way to look at this is soundly elucidated in this Rudolf Steiner quote:
“We must eradicate from the soul all fear and terror of what comes toward us out of the future. We must acquire serenity in all feelings and sensations about the future. We must look forward with absolute equanimity to everything that may come.”
If you must entertain a conspiracy theory, please do so responsibly. What you resonate and vibrate out into the world matters. You can either bring light to our world, or you can choose to stay steeped in the dark hallways where dastardly plots and their enablers are waiting to consume your soul. Personally, I’m finding I have little appetite for the bearers of conspiracy theory anymore, for they appear to me consumed and I won’t give quarter to that kind of energy.
That said, I hope my words and explanations have helped you look at conspiracy theories in a new light, and perhaps given you some tips on how to maintain your sacred sovereignty if you decide to peek into the dark caverns.
Drink your water. It helps.