wearehumanityFor days I had been having this sense of grief and anxiety. I was referring to it as “feeling blue” – mostly because I didn’t want to use the word depression, and I couldn’t find the right words to describe what I was feeling. As an empathetic person, with a good intuition, I was ‘checking in’ to the field of energy around me and trying to figure out what was going on. Sometimes, the feelings don’t make any sense. It was a very heavy and bad feeling, and it wouldn’t go away, no matter how many times I prayed prayers of peace. What I could perceive in my ‘field’, where my family and friends live, seemed to be fine, but that feeling persisted.

Today, I understand what I was feeling. This is a gift that my mom also had. For her, it was extremely frustrating to get these feelings ahead of time and not be able to do anything to prevent the tragedy about which she was sensing. Last night was the first time that I felt that same frustration. Why couldn’t I have been more tuned in and been able to speak more specific words? Why didn’t I devote more time to the deep meditation and practices I know work? Quickly, though, I came to the realization that today is about learning the lesson and doing the work that is left to do. To try to bring healing energies into this field and make way for wisdom in this aftermath. It’s smarter to learn a lesson about doing the work ahead of time, and not to get caught up in the frustration. Just to be clear, writing and speaking words feels like a vain and lame part of the work.

There are a lot of lost, critically wounded souls walking around right now. I’m one of them. But I see a light, and that light is telling me to keep lighting candles, keep praying wisdom prayers, keep speaking peace to anger so that it transforms from violent/retributive anger to sacred anger. One destroys. The other heals. And moves us forward. So, I do the work, alongside many, many others who are also doing the work. Praying. Shifting. Crying. And I will be calling my government representatives.

We have to stand up and say enough is enough. I am tired of having conversations with people, explaining why a weapon of war should AT LEAST require a background check. I know I can’t change someone’s heart who gets their jollies firing an automatic weapon for sport, but I will be damned if I stand by while the murder of innocent people continues to be that sport. So, at the very least, we must say that this is the TIME for us to make people go through a background check. We have no more excuses. Any inaction past this date that leaves us in our current paradigm is straight up black-hearted and cold-hearted inhumanity. 

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One last thing I want to offer – are words from a book called “The Alchemy of the Heart” by Michael Brown. There is a lot of talk about revolution, and yet, I don’t think revolution is the highest action we can take. I bought this book several years ago. All attempts to read it were in vain. Last night, that changed.

In the Introduction, he makes some very profound distinctions that I think can help us move forward. I’ll use his words, since they are much better.

“It {the process in the book} empowers us to transform the quality of our human experience by revealing the alchemical role of our heart. The perceptual journey it initiates inspires a movement of our awareness from revolutionary to effortless evolutionary behavior

By continuing to behave as if we can authentically transform our circumstances through imposing our will upon the outside world, we constantly enter revolutionary behavior. The very word ‘revolutionary’ reveals the outcome – we inevitably revolve into similar circumstances from which we are attempting to extricate ourselves, and often worse.

A revolutionary approach is born of a mentality that seeks to liberate itself with the same approach that it perceives to be the cause of its suppression. By resorting to this reactive mentality, a revolutionary always becomes an oppressor. This in turn seeds a whole new crop of revolutionaries.

Alchemy of the Heart invites us to consider the option of evolutionary behavior, an approach to adjusting the quality of our human experience that doesn’t lead us back in the experiential circumstances from which we seek liberation, but it takes us beyond.”

There’s much more, but I’ll stop there and encourage you to pick up the book yourself. Even if you don’t read the whole thing, there are pieces of wisdom that you can land upon just browsing and the book itself is energetically healing. If you only take one thing from that section, I hope that it is this….


Let us evolve into the loving, compassionate and wise human beings we were meant to be.